“ARGHHHHHH.........!” an extreme shout comes from her. She became like the one in mental hospital out of a sudden. All of her roommates were so shocked seeing her change. She felt so stressed with her mother. Her mother seems not being understanding at all. She wants to bring her friend over to her house on the holidays but her mother did not agree. That night were supposed to be a fun night as it was a night for the girls annual dinner. This means that they can wear anything they like and do whatever they want as the boys will not be there. It is more like a girl’s night out. She was very happy at that afternoon but as soon her mother called, immediately she become moody. She had been thinking about bringing her friend to her house so she will not be so bored during the holidays. Her mother simply stopped her intentions.
Soon, in the annual dinner, everybody was having fun but for her it is such a horrible time thinking of her mother. Her friends were singing and eating but she just sit on a chair. While looking to her friend’s cheerful face, she remembered about how her life goes on for 18 years long.
“UWEKKKK....UWEKKKK”, a cry from a baby girl. A sound that she wanted to listen so much. She felt like she was the happiest woman in the world. Although her husband was not beside her like other husband but it is alright. Her pain is replaced with the cry that gave her calmness. Now, she is a mother although she is just 16 years old. For many women, having a child in the age is impossible but she makes it possible. 20 November 1991, the day her cute little child was born. She will remember that date forever.
Maizan Maisarah bt. Ismail, that was the name given to the little girl. She had a happy life with her parents being beside her wherever she goes. Her mother cooked her favourite dish every day. The situation goes on for about 12 years. Having 5A’s for her UPSR gave her the chance to enter SBP, the school that most people wanted to go.
7th January 2004, that was the day Maizan entered Sekolah Menengah Sains Sultan Mohamad Jiwa. Her parents were so happy seeing their beloved daughter has taken one step forward to a success life. Her life as a student continued normally at that school for a week. Then, Maizan went back to her house during the weekends. Her father and her younger brother fetched her from her school using her mother’s car. Around 5 pm, they reach Terengganu. Her father brought them to the field to play soccer while waiting for their mother to finish her work. As promised, her father fetched her mother at Hospital Marang and soon drove back to their house. They reached their house when it was Isyak time.
This was when the tragedy started. Maizan’s mother found his father’s dirty soccer shoes in her car boot. She was so pissed off and she just threw them on the floor without thinking about the consequences. “Why did you throw my soccer shoes?” asked her father. “You know that I don’t like dirty things to be in my boot” answered her mother. Then, they just kept quiet and all of them went into their house. Maizan missed her younger brother so much and started to talk to him about everything that happened when she was not around. They laughed while watching the television when suddenly they heard a strange noise. A noise as if people were shouting. They continued their chat thinking that the noise was from their neighbour. After a few minutes, they realized that the sound was from inside their parents’ room and they started crying. Maizan took a brave act and went to her parents’ room and asked for her father explanation. “Why are you beating up mother? Have pity on her please”, said Maizan. “Just shut up. Don’t interfere. This is between your mother and me”, shouted her father. She went away with rolling tears falling down her face. She then sat with her brother and cried together until they fall asleep.
“KokKokKok...” the sound of the rooster woke Maizan and his younger brother from their sleep. They immediately rushed into their parents’ room. Maizan was very touched to see her mother squatting at the corner of the room. Her brother and Maizan ran to their mother and asked their mother what did their father did. “Your father is an animal. He is even more useless than an animal. He is so heartless!’’, shouted her mother. Her mother kept saying bad things to her father. She went nearer to her mother and found out that her mother eyes were swollen on one side. There was blood flowing out of her mother’s lips.
That was how the black tragedy happened. It had changed Maizan’s life. At school she was a happy go lucky student that no one ever expected that she came from a broken family. All of her friends knew about the real her only after she told them the actual story. She has been staying with her mother for the past 5 years. This means that she has been apart from her father for also 5 years. That absolutely gave a big impact to her as she is the first child in her family. Her father kept pushing her to pursue her mother to be together again. She was so tensed because she needed to focus on her studies and at the same time find the solutions to her family problem. Most of the time, she complaint to her creator, Allah. Even though she knows that we must not complain over the test Allah gave to humans but she cannot even hold it anymore. She was so jealous to see her friends having a happy family. Certain people do not have a happy family but they are rich and the same things go all around. Some people are happy even though they are poor. For her, it seems that she got nothing. Either happiness in a form of money nor a happy family.
“Maizan....do you want some drink?’’ asked Shauqa. Shauqa’s question woke Maizan up from her dream of her past. “No, thanks.” said Maizan. Then she walked back to her room and started crying thinking about her painful past. Slowly, she grabbed the Al-Quran on her table and starts to recite it as tears rolling down her cheek.
“Ya Allah, only you can give me the calmness for all my anxiety. Even though I have been ungrateful to you for so many times but you are still here for me. Only you that loves me so much.” said Maizan. Then, she suddenly thought, “Maybe I am not the one to get humans love but the most important thing is that Allah loves me. Alhamdulillah.” Maizan thought. You kept challenged me with all kind of test that keeps making me asking Why Me? Why I am the one that have to go through all this in this very young age? I forgot that all this shows you love me. You are so great. Allahuakbar. I love you Allah, forever and ever, my true love.
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